
"This isn't where I expected us to be."
"GPS didn't account
for—" Bill rapped the machine, waited for directions, a detour.
"Barricade." Grey filtering in at the temples, he never looked
more handsome. "Kids expect us to be late, anyway."
"They expect you
to be late."
"Meaning?"
He'd pull out that
necklace at the party, "surprise" her with his promotion. "Let's
walk."
"It's snowing."
"You used to love the
snow." Summer snow cones at Coney Island, winter nights snuggled
against his body as the snow fell outside the cabin upstate. "I
miss those days."
Bill kept driving, in
circles.
"I want out." She shoved
open the door. Tuck and roll. The compacted snow would either
soften her landing or she'd ram into an iceberg.
Better than a slow
drown.
Slotting up against a
snowdrift, he nudged the door closed on her. "Can't get out that
way."
There was a time she
didn't want out, but in. "Forty-five's still young." The words
floated like the snowflakes, which resembled miniature sand
dollars hitting the windshield. Heavy and light at the same
time. Isn't everything in life a double-edged sword? Love,
marriage, snow?
Bill cut the engine. The
open door dinged three times, waiting for an answer: Are you
in or out?
"Is there another man?"
"Another man?" God, he
didn't have a clue. "Isn't one jackass enough?"
He reached over, rubbed
the hem of her dress between his fingers. "Silver becomes you."
"Twenty-fifth
anniversary. I didn't think you'd noticed."
"I don't need some
damned GPS to read you." He pushed open the driver door, took
her hand. "Can't get out that way."
As she shimmied across
the velour seat, the steering wheel grazed her thigh, the way
Bill used to.
"Stilettos—" He laughed.
"Aren't made for walking, especially in snow."
"But they're great for a
swift kick in the ass."
He locked the door,
hesitated. "What if we—" He pointed to the crowd. "Watch the
ball drop."
"Can't see it from
here."
"Then we'll just have to
get closer to Times Square."
"Quit." Before he pulled her
through the throng, before he tried to whitewash the future with
the past.
"I proposed Christmas
Eve—"
"Quit the job, sell the
house."
"—New Year's Eve, we
made love at the cabin." He kissed a snowflake from her nose.
"Serendipitous. The snow. We were snowed in on our honeymoon.
Remember?"
"Bill—"
He reached into his coat
pocket—the one over his heart.
"I don't want some
damned diamond. I want—" She watched the snow fall against the
blue moon hanging in the sky. Watched her breath condense. Could
they find their way again? "I want you."
He pulled out his cell
phone, flipped it open. "Bill McMann here. I quit. I want out."
He snapped the phone shut, tossed it in front of a snowplow
rumbling past. "And in." He reached a hand under her skirt, ran
his thumb over her thigh, melted the snow.